Not Taking It Laying Down

You'd think having just administered "Last Rites" on my hopes and dreams for the upcoming Indoor Nationals ontop of tomorrows Colonoscopy I'd have the demeanour of beaten broken man{gotta tella ya  a day long diet of fuckin Jello Cups and Chicken Broth isn't filling me w/ glee but.....}far from it.

I blew the weekend off in terms of running.... a sin w/ such glorious conditions but as ever there ws a method to my madness,no point chasing "lost milage" from earlier in the week and also since I can't run today or tomorrow why go for the "stop/start" routine......but w/ 20 weeks till Outdoor Nationals this coming Thursday I thought a little down time both mentally and physically wasn't such a bad thing.
Providing it all goes to plan tomorrow I aim to be "up and at em" come Wednesday b4 my back to back races at The Armory on Thursday and Friday and then it's full steam ahead to the outdoor season w/ one final  visit to The Armory on March 21st.

Having already turned my attention towards outdoors I could be forgiven for feeling the Running Gods haven't "done me a solid" where the outdoor schedule is concerned,in an ideal world w/ 20 weeks to Wake Forest I would have given myself a 8 to 10 week period of solid base building,5 day 40mpw w/ 2 interval sessions each week in there to work on speed,strength and stamina and then 2 races per month in May,June and July leading upto July 17th.......
There's a "Twilight Series" of races at Ichan Stadium in May b4 the "Tuesday Nite Speed Series" kicks off in June and July and for good measure a meet in Philly on July 1st{I know me run in Philly it's almost unheard of  right!!!} I couldn't have written a better schedule if I tried.

While I have concerns w/ tomorrows procedure all I can do is put my faith in Gods hands that everything will be on the up and up and w/ a clean bill of health I can get ready to knuckle down to a spring and summer of hard training,kickin arse and taking names

Don't Go Playing In The Danger Zone

When the clock strikes midnite tonite and the deadline for entries passes for online entry to the upcoming Indoor Nationals at Reggie Lewis in Boston my name will not be there..........
After much soul searching this week I decided against throwing my bandana in the ring,it wasn't an easy decision but it feels like the correct one......that's not to say that I won't second guess myself repeatedly between now and Sunday March 16th but in my heart of hearts I feel it's the right decision.

The fact that over the past three days when neither weather  nor work has been an issue and I've failed to galvinise myself to get out and run shows me my heart just isn't in it and frankly going through the motions doesn't do it for me.it didn't work in my marriage and it damn sure dosen't work where my running is concerned.
As I sat on my recliner yesterday afternoon instead of being out logging another all important run I watched the bronze medal match of the womens Ice Hockey at the Winter Olympics and thought back to Boston 08 an Indoor Nationals.

That year I was coming off of my stress fracture on my left foot,I'd lost 6 weeks of training and now had 8 weeks to prepare for Indoor Nationals,I didn't want to go but my then coach convinced me to go.....it proved to be an unmitigating disaster 8th in the 800m and 11th in the 3,000m I can recall hauling arse out of the Reggie Lewis Center as soon as my 800m was over that morning and prefering to kill time at Logan Airport waiting for my afternoon flight back to Philly rather than sit around there,I swore never again would I compete at a National Championship if I wasn't 100% race ready and frankly here I am some 6 years later feeling that same way.
I'd rather not go and deal w/ the mental anguish of "what if" than go and fall on my arse like I did back in 08,it was and probably still is the lowest low of my entire running career and I never want to feel that way again.
Hopefully '' history will repeat it's self" after a woeful indoor season in 08 I rebounded nicely w/ a silver in the 800m and gold in the 1,500m in Spokane at Outdoor Nationals b4 running  a memorable 5th Avenue Mile in September in 4.17......that'll serve as my motivation between now and late September this season.

I watched the differing reactions of the Swiss and Swedish womens Ice Hockey teams at the final buzzer yesterday,the joy and elation of the Swiss having won a bronze,vindication for four years of hard work,dedication and sacrifice and on the other side of the blue line the heartbrake and despair for the Swedish team,nothing to show for the same four years of hard work,dedication and sacrifice.......having tasted more than my fair share of success at both Indoor and Outdoor Nationals and some failure I can identify w/ both emotions  and I know which I prefer.
While Boston and Indoor Nationals is off the books now I will see out the Indoor Season,Thursday the mile and Friday the 800m both at The Armory b4 a return there on March 21st for the 1,500m,the journey to Wake Forest and Outdoor Nationals in July begins NOW!!!

Getting Away From Me

If ever the universe was trying to tell me something then maybe yesterday was the day I sat up and took notice.
Despite waking up to another three inches of snow {58.4 inches and counting.....} he snow stopped by mid morning and conditions were above favourable by the time I arrived home at 4.10pm.....to run or not to run??
Truth was I was already on the fence about running,the deadness in my legs over Sunday and Mondays 18 miles kind of put me on the back foot to begin w/ and maybe a rest day is just what the doctor ordered.....though I had a week off between last Sunday and this Sunday and my legs still felt like shit so I hardly think a whole day was going to make a whole heap of difference.

Then for the death nail, a message from Jefferson re my Colonoscopy next Tuesday......
Aside from the whole unpleasentness of the procedure to begin w/ now comes a laundry list of do's and dont's the day b4 and day of including "no physical activity".......are you fucking kiddin' me, like I haven't lost enough training this winter due to the weather and work and now I've got to lose ANOTHER 2 days.....fuck off!
Now IF it weren't for the fact I have my final two pre Nationals races on tap for next Thursday and Friday I could still hit a 5 day/40mpw HOWEVER I do have races so I can kiss ANOTHER 40 mile week goodbye and that banging sound you hear is another nail in my Indoor Nationals coffin.....like I said I'm clutching at straws here........

Did Somebody Say Treadmill??

You know what they say about shit rolling one way,down hill well guess who feels he's stuck at the foot of the mountain????
After another bull busting day at work I had to endure another sub par run,while I'm grateful to actually get out and run at a time when my confidence is as low as whale shit....ie at the foot of the ocean the last thing I needed was a run that was 9 minutes slower than it should be over 8 miles.
Granted some of the conditions along my out and back along the Schuylkill Banks are still covered in ice but on Sunday over the same course w/ the exception of Sunday being a 10 miler and yesterday being 8 miles I only lost 2 minutes.

The cause of the problem seems to be my legs they feel heavier than a Tony Iommi rift or a John Bonham drum beat,zero knee lift,next to no leg turnover,after a week off you'd have though they'd be fresh and chompin' at the bit but no such luck.
Is this my anemia playing up again a la 2011? who the fuck knows I've been doing the red meat thing once a a week and taking vitamins but it dosen't seem to be helping and now w/ my friggin Colonoscopy scheduled for next Tuesday a "cease and desist" order has been mandated on my daily vitamin intake,I need that like i need a new areshole.....which I may need after next Tuesday.......

I can't imagine there being a dramatic change in fortunes tonite or tomorrow when I next run and try as I might to accent a positive attitude it's getting harder and harder each day to see me boarding a flight to Boston on March 14th.......

Second Guessing

Quick! inform the president,alert NASA,call out the National Guard there's a huge orange fireball in the sky!!!!! oh my bad,it's the fuckin' sun.....been so long since I've seen the bastard I forgot what it looked like!!
It took me a week to finally get a run in but yesterday I was able to log a 10 miler....that's a whole 10 miles for the week......fuckin' ada so much for my plan of logging 40 mile a week after Hartshorne!!!
So far I've managed 40 mpw,30mpw and 10 mpw.....and DON'T even get me started on trying to get to the track for repeats!!!!!!!

The upshot of all this is I'm not 100% convinced a trip to Boston in just under 4 weeks time for Indoor Nationals is worth it.....the problem being that the deadline for entries is this Friday so I have to at least committ to that  unless I wish to drop an extra $50  for the late deadline the following week which is about as much use to me as a one legged man in  an arse kickin' contest.
The following week I have back to back races scheduled for The Armory a mile on Thurs Feb 27th at the final Thursday Nite @ The Races series followed by an 800m on the Friday nite as part of the USATF NYC C'ships providing my times over the mile and 800m are half way decent I'll committ 100% to Indoor Nationals and book my flight and hotel......but if neither time is going to put me "in the conversation" then I'll just eat the entry fee and not waste another $600 on airfair and a hotel it just isn't worth it at this point.

I realize I'm not the only one whos training has suffered due to the "winter of our discontent" but coupled w/ the 17 month inactivity on the competive front each missed run and each cancelled track workout and each bad race has put me further behind the 8 ball than I'd like to be,it would suck to miss a second successive Indoor Nationals period muchless at Reggie Lewis in Boston where I love to run but to go all that way and spend all that money and just be there to make up the numbers doesn't sit w/ me,lets see what the weather and running gods have in store for me over the next two weeks b4 making a final decision.....

You Call This Justice?

They say Leopards don't change their spots and frankly at 50 years old I don't feel the need to give explainations or apologies for the things I do......I haven't up untill now so why should I start now,old dog new trick......however I do feel  the need to give the 14 or so regulars who faithfully read my blog on a daily basis a rhyme and reason as to why there were no runs the past two days..... believe me when I say it wasn't my choice not to run but evidently the universe has its own set of rules that I'm just expected to comply w/ irrigardless of if I agree w/ them or not!

Monday just continued where Friday left off.....an utter shitfest to the point I was SO agravated all I ate all day was 2 Granola Bars and subsequently by the time I left work at 3.20pm I knew a run wasn't happeneing again.
It's bad enough the weather is dictating when I can or cannot run but now friggin' work on top of that?
This summer will mark 24 years since I graduated High School,I wasn't what you'd call a "straight A student" and while I seldom cut class I seldom turned in homework muchless made an effort in the classroom"you'll rue the day the wasted this opportunity" I was told repeatedly......"yeah right!!" I thought.......guess they got the last laugh as am now slogging my guts out on a loading dock at 50 instead of some nice cushy office postion somewhere.........that'll teach me won't it!!!

Tuesday, lo and behold my coworker was back after a five day stint of Jury Duty but despite now having someone to share the workload I still found myself all over the place like chickenshit on a farm,subsequently by the time I got home the events of the previous five days had caught up w/ me and I slumpped into my recliner,I knew a run wasn't happening again and I'm sure w/ the latest "Stormageddon" about to hit I'll rue missing either or both days.
Technically I could still get a 5 day/40mpw but  IF tomorrows snow is as bad as the whoremongers.....sorry weather people say its going to be I'd say Thursday and potentially Friday are non runners for starters.......we'll have to wait and see what developes I guess?

Going Long

Thanks in  no small part to the THREE F'S I had to settle for a 4 day 30 mile week,the Fucking  weather cost me a couple of days,the FUCK up w/ the schedule at The Armory re the Thursday Nite @ The Races  debarcle and finally the FUCK up that was Friday at work.
As it stood Friday morning I had 8 miles for the week so I needed 32 miles over three days,easy 8 on Friday,10 on Saturday and 14 on Sunday.....volia  a 5 day/40mpw........

I'm still blistering from the events of Friday at work and won't bore you w/ the facts but the upshot of the day was off of 5 hours sleep from my frankly wasted trip to The Armory I walked into a minefield at work on Friday and things went downhill quicker than Bode Miller!!!!!
The upshot of the day was I worked solo from 6.25am to 4.23pm and ate a whole Banana mainly due to being  SO agravated I couldn't eat anything else so the prospect of an 8 miler wasn't an option and w/ it wen my plans for a 5 day 40/mpw.....hey ho!
W/ that plan shot to shit I opted to do a 10 miler on Saturday and a 12 miler on Sunday to give me a 4 day 30/mpw.....better than nothing I guess.
After Saturdays  10 miler I hit the Schuylkill Bank/Kelly Drive path/sidewalk for my 12 miler,frankly I hadn't ran above 10 miles in eons probably late 2011 so it was a bit of an eye opener  but w/ a pair of 10 milers under my belt on Saturday and last Sunday I didn't see it as an issue.

What was an issue was how dead my legs felt,zero knee lift and very little in the way of leg turnover I was getting left for dead by other runners who blew right by me,my legs had felt a little heavy on Saturday which I put down to some lactic acid still in them after Thursdays 800m but frankly after a 10 miler and a soak in the tub post run I wasn't expecting them to feel so heavy,that said I ended up only 2 minutes slower than the time I thought I'd run based on my previous days 10 miler.
Obviously there was nom point rying to tackle repeats at Temple this past week and I have a horrible feeling it could be off limits again next week.....